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January 22, 2015 [Jan. 22nd, 2015|11:55 pm]
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Up late morning again, and I started the day feeling vaguely depressed. I did have a productive early afternoon, though: I did some more laundry, continued updating my LiveJournal, and did some clothes shopping online. Then things started to go downhill.

It wasn't anything drastic, juts a couple of small events. First, I got a phone call from someone in my college graduating class who encouraged me to come to our upcoming 25th reunion. I was polite to her and vague about my plans (I'm almost certainly not going), but it left me thinking about how little I've done with my life in the last 25 years. Then, queenmomcat told me that we'd sold online another book from my medieval history collection. The specific book in question came out at the end of my time at Notre Dame, and it was close enough to my dissertation topic that it kind of put the final nail in the coffin of what little motivation I had left. So that also got me dwelling on the past, which depressed me even further.

So I took a nap. I did feel better when I got up, but not by much. queenmomcat and I ended up going out for our weekly dinner date this evening, which also helped a bit, but I'm still feeling less than happy at the moment. I know this will probably life by tomorrow, or Saturday at the latest, but that's small consolation for the here and now. I think I'll just go back to bed and write today off.

[User Picture]From: queenmomcat
2015-01-25 05:14 pm (UTC)
If it's any comfort, I've kinda also been wondering "What have I done with my life?" lately?
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